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Just had a party and loved it. It was freaking hot just over a hundred degrees and I was slaving over a hot grill, strangely enough the heat did not bother me. Very strange because I usually hate the heat of summer. I prefer the chill of winter and snow, but whatever. Hanging out with cool and attractive friends was a nice change of pace, LOL. Playing DDR, and watching dumb moves... oh and drinking!   I am really looking forward to the Star Trek convention that I am going to this summer. I am just thinking of all the Star Trek merchandise I will buy at the convention. I will be even more broke!

Well there is another semester gone. classes are done and time to have a little fun before I start the next semester. It seems like school never ends. There is always more classes to take and papers to turn in. It feels like school is sucking my will to live some times... I work hard I do my work but I that my efforts are empty. Its like I just can't win with school. Just once I want people to be proud of me for what I have done,,, But I just never manage to meet their expectations. I always fall short, I fail them. And this time I had the perfect set up and still I failed. The difference between a B and an A might as well be the difference

I was talking to an old friend recently, she has kept up with the people I knew in middle school and high school better than I. To hear what became of many of my friends was... heart breaking. I remember them as young and full of life filled with dreams of grandeur. Now my friends are totally different. Drugs, sex and time took it's toll on them. People that were smart and sophisticated are now married to complete losers and have a several kids with the girl they knocked up. A girl that I once had a huge crush on and was always got better grades than me at school is working at Smith's; and she is now married to some guy how works there too.